Thursday, January 15, 2009

2 Sick Kids,1 Crazy Momma and Not a Caveman Club in Sight

So both my baby girls are sick today. Little Miss Jayden was the 1st one sick coughing and runny nose and with her persistant kissing on her baby sister, also got little Averi sick too. I tell you I begged that child

"PLEASE, Jayden stay out of your sister's face"

"But MOMMY I love her to much and I just have to kiss her"

Well all that little love has caused a coughing, sneezing, runny nosed 3 month old, to my suprise, isn't crying or irritated, but rather very smiley. Jayden on the other hand has done nothing but whine and cry and be a yucky little girl. She even went as far as to cry about the neighbors lol, what you may ask?? Well I went outside earlier this morning and the neighbors were leaving, Jayden thought it was her MiMi (my mother) after I told her that was the neighbors because MiMi is still in Mexico, she cried because I wasn't sharing with her lol, so out of pure evilness, I shouted "Jayden, I am not going to share the neighbors with you" well Little Miss Diva proceeded to tell me that she was going to break all my glass and move out. Ok ok lol.....

I told Jayden "If you are 100% brave enough to break my glass then go ahead" She went into my room and dropped her train picture frame onto a pillow lol. Well I told her that that particular item was hers so HAHA!! She then began to scream at me at the top of her lungs, so she got a spanking (Yes I do believe in a fair ASS Whooping lol) and was then sent to her room, where she cried and cried and cried!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!

Averi cried
Jayden cried
Averi's nose is running
Jayden's nose is running
Averi CRIES
Jayden CRIES

And I can not for the life of my find the caveman club to smack myself in the head and drag myself into the other room!!!

AHHH!!!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

The 3rd Head Emgered

Over stressed, over worked, sleep deprived, neglected, unloved Chelsie appeared today! Usually I am the level headed laughing at Jayden and making Averi giggle type of Mommy, but today my third head appeared. Yes there are three.

The one in the middle, the one that everyone can see is the calm level headed mommy, the second the one that only I can usually see is the dreamy one, the one that pretends she is always somewhere else doing something great with her time, like drinking Pina Colada's on a beach while some hot little waiter boy rubs my shoulders in a loin cloth, and the third is the stressed, crying, screaming, angry one, the one that made her appearance today.

So I yelled at Jayden today in a pretty terrifying manner, that made her cry and ask if "I still loved her and wanted her to be my baby" I felt horrible!! I later apologized and hugged her tight and as she wrapped her little arms around my neck and twirled my hair through her little fingers I remembered!

I remembered what it was like when it was just her, when there was nothing else in this world that could make me smile but her! I remembered when it was only her that I had to take care of and it was just her that I spent all of my hours with never wanting to do anything else but hold and kiss her and blow air farts on her little belly! It was just her!! I remembered how much she loved me and how no matter what she does or I do that she will always be my little girl and I her mother!! I remembered and I loved it!!

I started thinking about how silly she is! Last night she spent the night with her Nana and I called to tell her goodnight and give her phone kisses, but instead she decided that this is what our conversation was going to be about!

"Mommy, what are you doing?"

Nothing booger, what are you doing?

"Watching Wubbzy"

Ohh, I love you baby

"Where is Averi?"

Sleeping

"Can I talk to her?"

No baby she is sleeping, I love you

"Can I hear her sleep?"

No baby she isnt loud enough, I love you Jay

"Ok mommy bye"

I love you

"Oh wait shhhh I gotta secret"

Ok what is it

"Down by the lake, where the watermelons grow, I took myself and this is what I know, Have you ever seen a turtle wearing a pink girdle? Haha mommy wouldnt that be funny?"

Yes you are so silly....

"Yep, I love you too mommy kiss and hug mmm....BYE"

I sat here thinking and those are the moments that I tend to forget throughout the day, when she does something and my third head emerges, and now I have made a vow that when the Bitchy 3rd head begins to emerge I will remember! I will just remember!!

Neglected

So I have neglected my blog for a while and I guess it is time to get back on track!

Ok so as I sit here today and realize once again for the 26 millionth time my life sucks! Yes it is true I have two of the most beautiful little girls in the world, they are the only things in my life that make it exciting! Whether it is little Averi's cute smile and tiny giggle or Jayden's off the wall comments and pretend stories, but other than that there is absolutely no other excitment in my life.

Leonard's whole life consists of sitting on the couch, working in the mornings, eating, sleeping, shitting, and making me feel neglected! WOW! He never wants to do anything, he never wants to hang out or have fun because fun would mean that he would have to leave the couch, fun would mean he would have to spend time with me, fun would mean he wouldnt be able to sleep all day as he pleased!! It just pisses me off that he can go out with his buddies and hang out and have fun! That fun pulls him away from the couch, his children and me, but he is NEVER to tired to do that! No matter what time of night it is, if one of his buddies called and needed something or wanted him to hang out, he would almost break his neck to get up and go!! WHY??? I mean seriously Averi is 3 months old and we have only been out and hung out together one time since I was 4 months pregnant!! And if you didn't know lets count I was 16 weeks pregnant, Averi was born when I was 39 weeks pregnant and it has been 12 weeks since she was born so simple math shows that in 35 weeks an almost entire pregnancy he has spent one evening hanging out with just me and it was last Thursday and it was from 8:30pm until 10:30pm!! I just don't get it!! It pisses me off more than anything, he never wants to do anything unless it is by himself or with his friends! I am only 22 years old and I just can't see spending my time like an old woman sitting at home at this age, hell all I need is a few 100 cats before the neighborhood kids start calling me the cat lady!! If anyone has any advice, let me know!!

Neglected