The 3rd Head Emgered

Over stressed, over worked, sleep deprived, neglected, unloved Chelsie appeared today! Usually I am the level headed laughing at Jayden and making Averi giggle type of Mommy, but today my third head appeared. Yes there are three.

The one in the middle, the one that everyone can see is the calm level headed mommy, the second the one that only I can usually see is the dreamy one, the one that pretends she is always somewhere else doing something great with her time, like drinking Pina Colada's on a beach while some hot little waiter boy rubs my shoulders in a loin cloth, and the third is the stressed, crying, screaming, angry one, the one that made her appearance today.

So I yelled at Jayden today in a pretty terrifying manner, that made her cry and ask if "I still loved her and wanted her to be my baby" I felt horrible!! I later apologized and hugged her tight and as she wrapped her little arms around my neck and twirled my hair through her little fingers I remembered!

I remembered what it was like when it was just her, when there was nothing else in this world that could make me smile but her! I remembered when it was only her that I had to take care of and it was just her that I spent all of my hours with never wanting to do anything else but hold and kiss her and blow air farts on her little belly! It was just her!! I remembered how much she loved me and how no matter what she does or I do that she will always be my little girl and I her mother!! I remembered and I loved it!!

I started thinking about how silly she is! Last night she spent the night with her Nana and I called to tell her goodnight and give her phone kisses, but instead she decided that this is what our conversation was going to be about!

"Mommy, what are you doing?"

Nothing booger, what are you doing?

"Watching Wubbzy"

Ohh, I love you baby

"Where is Averi?"

Sleeping

"Can I talk to her?"

No baby she is sleeping, I love you

"Can I hear her sleep?"

No baby she isnt loud enough, I love you Jay

"Ok mommy bye"

I love you

"Oh wait shhhh I gotta secret"

Ok what is it

"Down by the lake, where the watermelons grow, I took myself and this is what I know, Have you ever seen a turtle wearing a pink girdle? Haha mommy wouldnt that be funny?"

Yes you are so silly....

"Yep, I love you too mommy kiss and hug mmm....BYE"

I sat here thinking and those are the moments that I tend to forget throughout the day, when she does something and my third head emerges, and now I have made a vow that when the Bitchy 3rd head begins to emerge I will remember! I will just remember!!