And these are the Days of My Life.....

Hi to all.....

So as you all know I just brought my baby girl home on Monday....And today she is offically one week old. Are you freaking kidding me?? How does this happen?? My little Princess that I so anticipated her arrival, is finally here and now growing older. How does this happen? I mean I know how it happens, you know the sun goes down and comes up and the days of the week go forward and dates change, but seriously I can't believe my itty bitty is a week old. But aww.... isn't she just the cutest thing??? Of course she is I made her lol!!

Aww isn't Bitty just PERFECT!!

Miss Averi's Poop Face

I just love this one....Always ready for the Breast lol

So my days are now spent in a much different way than before. I am running on no caffeine and about 2 1/2 hours of sleep each night. I spend my days, breastfeeding, changing little mini poops, giving and getting LOTS OF KISSES....sweet itty bitty baby kisses at that, and staring into the most wonderfully innocent eyes. I just am in LOVE! Absolute mommy bliss. I swear these are the moments that almost make me want to have more and more babies...key word almost! Yea I think I will NOT just throw my birthcontrol out the window lol.



So this evening I regained my new baby mommy powers lol! I completely cooked dinner one handed while I had a baby attached to my chest. Yes, isn't that an amazing trick?? LOL! Well the best part was after I finished cooking and finished breastfeeding, I made myself a bowl of Captain Crunch for dinner lol! Not the most nutritious dinner but hey...Ice cold milk and crunchy sweet pieces of cereal...YUMMY! But anyways.....



So I guess I am pretty much back down to my post baby weight, which was about 94lbs give or take a few, so I can finally see my feet and legs, and even my own crotch, which I realized could use a trim....lol who the hell am I kidding I couldn't reach the damn thing for months, so I guess what Im really saying is.....Anyone have a weedeater they want to donate to my "Save a kitty kat" cause LOL! I really can't do shit until Tuesday when they take my belly jewelry out (Staples people). Luckily I'm most definitely not trying to impress anyone with my great ability in Crotch Art right now. I mean hell its just me and my crotch and now all of you in "BLOGGYLAND" <<(court that was for you) that know that I am in need of a much needed mowing lol. But anyways....

So it's back to school on Monday HOORAY!!! lol I am soo dreading it because I have exams that I am completely struggling with.

So if you all could wish me some luck on the following:

School
Breastfeeding
Multi-tasking
Crotch Art

It would be greatly appreciated lol!

Well I guess I better get back to studying!!

Miss Averiana Jade Ellis

Miss Averiana Jade made her two day early arrival on October 11th 2008 at 1:31 am!! She weighed 6lbs 11oz and was 19inches long! She is just perfect!!

Well let's see it all started at about 7:30pm on the 10th when I was sitting outside with my little Diva when I thought that my water broke, well I wasn't sure if I was leaking, peeing or in labor so I went about my business as usual. Within 30 mins I had 3 or 4 other episodes of this annoying peeing/leaking/water breaking, so finally with much encouragement from Courtney I decided to call my grandmother and have her come sit with Jayden and Jaylain while I went to the hospital.

Well I went and picked up Courtney and we headed off to the hospital, by this time my pants pretty much looked like I could not gain control of my bladder and I swear everyone was staring straight at my butt, thinking "Prego needs depends" but anyways, we got to the hospital and they sent me straight upstairs to triage. I though "geez I'll spend all evening in here and they will tell me that I just pee'd" (As that happened when I was pregnant with Jayden)

Well so I get upstairs, change into the belly band and backless gown, laid down and let them hook me up to the fetal monitor. Well evidently I was having regular contractions. I mean I knew I was having them but never really paid attention to how regular as they had been going on for about 5 days. Well the doctor came in and decided to check my, this was at about 9PM. He checked me and asked plainly "Chelsie, How long have you been having contractions?" "Umm, about 4 or 5 days why?" "Well because your 4cm's dialated" Ok Ok yay I thought this is wonderful right? Yes because the next thing he said was "i'll be right back and we will probably be having a baby tonight"

A baby tonight?? Yes Yes Yes!! This is what I have been waiting for!! That was my first thought and then I realized Oh, no my house isn't cleaned, I need to disinfect disinfect disinfect. I started to ponder in my mind about the organization of my kitchen cabinets, leaves tracked from outside to inside on the rug and carpet in front of the door, my kitchen floor and bathroom floor needed to be mopped and I hadn't cleaned my toilet in 2 days!! Oh my! Yea I know what a freak I must be to know that I am getting ready to meet my Princess and all I could think about was the absence of windex on glass, Mr. Clean on the floors and Toilet cleaner to make my toilet shine a bit more. So anyways....

I decided to call Daddy at work and tell him what the Doc had just said! He got to the hospital within about 20 mins and by that time Doc came back in and confirmed that my c-section would be tonight!! YAY!!

Daddy decided to leave and run home really quick, because he had just gotten of work and wanted to take a shower before he met his Princess! Well about 10mins after he left the Doc came back in and informed me that I needed to get a hold of him and let him know that he had about 20mins before the c-section would begin!

Daddy doesn't answer phone calls from my mom or the doctor (yes the doctor called him too lol) because he was in the shower and apparently I am the only one that totes the phone to the shower with me lol. Well anyways Dad did make it back in time!!

So Courtney and my mother went out into the waiting room where mom called my cell phone every 3 minutes until they wheeled me into the OR! LOL I love her she is so worrisome! The wonderful anticipation that Grandma's feel! Lovely :)

Well Dad put on his OR scrubs first backwards, then ripping a hole in the shoe covers, then he had a practice run with the camera which when he started taking pics to make sure he could do it, he was pointing the camera the wrong way lol. He was supposed to use me as his practice subject and the first 3 pics he took were of himself because he was using it wrong! Awww the nervousness of Dad lol Lovely :)

Well they came in and started to wheel me to the OR! Dad had to wait outside while they gave me my spinal which I am sorry to say for myself who has experienced both an epidural and a spinal, the spinal hurt much more! It is like shooting fire straight down your spinal cord! Ohhh shivering right now thinking about it! But this time the nurse was kind enough to hold my hand and soothe me through the process that probably took about 4 mins but in pain time it felt like hours! So after the spinal and the catheter it was time to begin!!

Dad came back in, sat down beside me and started talking to me! Well about 10 mins later I asked the nurse "Have they started yet??" "Yes they are making the incision in the uterus now" Wow what was I thinking? That I would lay there for 10 mins and the docs would just look at my cute belly bump in amazement? lol

Well at 1:31am I heard my itty bitty cry for the first time! It was the most amazing cry, so loud and strong and so very pissed that the cold air hit her bottom! That was another amazing moment in my life, a moment that I will never forget!! She was so cute and slimy looking and all I wanted to do was hold her and love on her right then and there!!

So then Daddy and the nurses took my itty bitty to the nursery while the doctors finished up! Well I'm laying there and look down at the shadows on the partition and I swear it looked like those doctors just high fived! What?? This isn't a basketball game and you guys just scored lol! So I asked the nurse "Umm did they just high five??" "No worse, they gave each other 'pound'" lol I thought well hell why don't they just grunt and beat their chests like a drum! Tim Allen grunt anyone lol???

Well off to recovery it was, luckly the recovery room nurse was an ex-classmate of mine when I was in Nursing school, so I got a little extra special treatment lol!

In recovery I got to meet the other love of my life! Averiana! Oh and she is soo beautiful!! Perfectly round head, smooth skin, jet black hair, sweet little lips and nose, and long fingers and toes. She was a mix of myself and Jayden and made my heart melt when I got to kiss her and touch her sweet little skin for the first time!! Ohh my little itty bitty!! She was soo tiny, Daddy's hands are bigger than her little body! Love her little heart!

The Hospital Stay........

The hospital stay was like any other, prison without the bars lol! I had a roommate so Daddy couldn't stay, the bed was terribly uncomfortable, floors were cold and I realized that I had sent my shoes and things home with Daddy the night she was born! I was stuck with a catheter and it hurt to move and I was done for if I coughed or sneezed lol!! On the upside...

Itty bitty was here and she stayed with me in the room, unless they needed to check her vitals. Well then I decided to send her to the nursery so that I could get 3 hours of sleep and not worry about her, well ummm no! One hour later they brought her back because for some odd reason Averi became spoiled to moms arms and breast in about the first 17 hours of her life lol. Well they brought her back because they said she cried the whole time and not one of the nurses could calm her down! Aww bitty, well I picked up my screaming baby and not more than 1/2 second later Averi was calm! I love it! :)

Averi only crys when she is naked, hungry or wanting mommy to hold her close! She is extremely happy at the breast and very eager to eat! Her Lactation Consultant said itty bitty is a Nursing Pro! LoL! She absolutely HATES having her diaper changed, but at the same time HATES being wet or dirty lol! So I cant win for losing on that situation! lol!

I am however truly enjoying the peepee's, poopies, spit ups and sleepless nights! I love looking into her innocent eyes as she struggles to find which way the boobie is coming to her lol! I love when she is close enough to my chin she will begin suckling! I love how her little hands move all over the place and her little legs curl up when her feet are touched! I love the way she smells when she gets her sponge bath and I love the way she smells when she hasn't had her smell could wipe down! I even love the way she smells when she has eaten too much and dribbles puke down her shirt! I love the softness of her skin and the way she tries to be a big girl and hold her head up on her little wobbly neck! I love everything about her! Everything!!!

Well so anyways that was the introduction to my itty bitty! I will post more pics as I get them!! Don't you all just think she is the cutest thing ever?? I do!!

Mini Diva

Ok Ok so I made a BIG MISTAKE today lol!

So earlier today while Jaylain and her Dad were at her homecoming football game, Jayden and I came home and I decided to clean out the car and clean out the trunk so we could go ahead and put the baby seat and stroller in the car. So first we began with the trunk, there were just a lot of toys and my older school texts from previous semesters, a few pieces of old mail, a bunch of change, and......a makeup case of mine that had somehow lost its lid and all the makeup was scattered all over the car.

Well if anyone knows my little Princess, then you would know that she is absolutely 100% GIRLY GIRL! She loves makeup, lip gloss, fingernail polish, lotion, soap, smell good body sprays, any girly perfume. Seriously if you can rub it in, paint it on, lather it up, or spray it on some crazy part of your body, little miss Jayden loves it! I mean she loves lip gloss so much that if she has it on and I try to kiss her bye or whatever she shields her mouth and gives me a cheek or a forehead.

Well anyways, so my "Mini Diva" saw all of this wonderful makeup that was scattered around the trunk, it was like freaking eyeshadow heaven for this child. Well to be better able to reach all of these glorious colors, Jayden took it upon herself to climb right in the trunk. LOL How cute was she, needless to say after I wrestled the makeup from her and put it back in the case, all the while Promising a 100 times that when we went back inside she could have some, notice I said "some" So anyways she did help me clean out the trunk while she sat in the back talking about the wonderful things that she had already planned (in like 3mins) to do with this wonderful palate of face colors.

So then I ask her to help me take the last few things in the house, she did, aww wonderful little girl, well I went back out to shut the doors and the trunk and went back in the house and found my little princess already Indian style in the floor rummaging through the case of makeup. Saying outloud "I'll have this one and this one and ummm....mommy can I have this one too?" I swear I said early "Jayden when we get back in the house you can have some!" LOL I didnt think that I had said Jayden I will give it to you forever to have as your own lol! But I guess in her little mind thats what she heard.

So I gave her a little bag to keep her things in. I gave her 3 eyeshadows (mostly light colors that don't show up) I gave her 3 different applicator brushes, a blush brush, some clear fruit flavored lip glosses and some clean sponges. She begged for foundation, (No because Merle Norman is pretty expensive) she begged for mascara (No because it will hurt my babies little brown eyes) she begged for facial scrub (No, why would she want it anyways, she crys when water hits her eyes lol). So after much negotiation she finally settled on what I had originally given her!

Well then she slops it all on herself in one swift motion, then haha haha its mommy's turn lol! She made me beautiful, I had pink eyeshadow on my eyes, green on my cheeks, lip gloss all over my teeth and below my nose. It was great but she was sooo proud of herself! I loved it!!

So there was my mistake lol I gave my 3 year old a nice bag of makeup and no it wasn't PLASTIC AHHHH! But she actually did ok with it, she was very responsible and adult like with it. What I am meaning to say is that there was no makeup found on any carpet or furniture! She is tooo stingy with it to spill it I think loL!

So I am determined that Jayden is going to grow up to be a Makeup Artist lol! Well atleast this week I am sure of it!!

So there was my exciting afternoon with my little MINI DIVA and her wonderfully advanced makeover skills! I loved it!!

Politics Smolitics

No I am not into politics by far, but from what I do catch up on and keep myself informed on I have come to realize that McCain and Palin will not be getting my vote. As I don't want to see either one of them living life as our countries two highest executive leaders! Call me whatever but HEY he is old as hell and she is an idiot LOL! No those aren't wonderful political reasons why I don't like them, I mean seriously she has no experience with anything that has to do with running a country and I think somewhere in his presidency (if he wins) McCain will have some crazy war flashback and our troops won't come home until the middle east is below ground.

I don't think I was this aggravated with the whole thing until McCain announced he had chosen Palin. I don't care who says what she really sounds like some 16 year highschool girl, you know the one who gossiped about everyone in the bathroom while being completely clueless about the truth all at the same time.
Pro-Life great to each their own
Pro-Global Warming lol I am sorry I didn't mean that one
Pro-Mooseburger umm wonder if she lost all the PETA supporters on that one lol??

Hell I just think she is the dumber female version of George Bush, Yes yes I have it she's Bush with lipstick and an up-do lol "Uh what huh What was the question?? Umm.... could you repeat that so I can repeat you and not really give you any type of answer?"

Hockey Moms unite and vote this dumbass into office lol ok ok, since "Obama doesn't have any experience with grown children and grown children going off to war" and Palin has plenty of experience with grown children since her 17 year old daughter is umm KNOCKED UP, we should just say screw Obama, Go Palin! I think NOT!

Seriously our economy is falling into a heaping pile of rubble, we are still living on broken promises and dreams given to us by Bush himself, so now lets vote into office the female version of Bush and completely blow out that little flicker of whats left of the dim light that we call our future.

Why do you like her? Because she is like us someone regular?? What, well Im sorry to say but I don't think that a "regular" person with no political experience and no real education could just jump right in and turn this nation around, someone who is more like a lot of our nation, wow I guess if you look at McCain and Palin and its like looking in the mirror for you, then I really don't know what to tell you! And I can also say that she is nothing like me, I want to see this country regain some dignity and get back up and hold its own self up and I dont feel that McCain and Palin are going to get that for us.

But I guess to each his own but for me..........

In need of Prayers

So I would just like to share with you all a wonderful lady that I met on a website that helped me through the life and death of my daughter Nadia, www.benotafraid.net. It is a wonderful website to help anyone that has recieved a poor prenatal diagnosis. On this site I have met many great mothers and fathers who have all at one point endured some heartache. A special story comes from a woman named Stacy who is currently pregnant with a sweet little boy named Isaac, who is scheduled to enter the world on October 7th 2008. One may say great wonderful I am happy for her, good luck and congrats. But in this case what is needed is prayers and lots of them. Little Isaac is a strong little boy who has overcome his obstacles but also has more to overcome. http://sgirl79.blogspot.com/ here is the link to her blog if any of you would like to become more familiar with her story. What is needed now is pure hope and prayer that her little one will be here on this side of heaven with her for more than just a few minutes or hours or days, Prayer that little Isaac will have a special place here on earth and his time for Heaven will not come now! Prayers that Stacy will get to keep this little boy by her side, here with her! Prayers that this little boy will live. I ask you all please Pray for Isaac and his mommy and daddy!

The feeling of knowing that your time is slowly running out and there is nothing you can do to stop it, that is one of the most painful feelings one could ever feel especially as a Mother. To know that in only a short few days that your little one will no longer be safe inside of you. To know that your little one may come and leave you all in the same moment in time. And most of all knowing that no matter what happens you are not in control. No matter how much of that natural protection instinct as mothers we have, we know that when the time is up, it is up and there is nothing that we can do to protect our babies. The feeling of total helplessness consumes all of your reflexes and all you can do is just wait, and hope and pray. And hope that one this day your prayers will be answered! Knowing that you may only have a few short days left with your child.

What happens when the time is up? I tell you what happens, your heart breaks into a million pieces, your soul is saddened and you can't feel your own heartbeat anymore, when you time ends with a child that you will forever miss, there is more pain than anyone could ever imagine. What do you do when you can't feel your own heartbeat anymore and you have to question reality to see if this has really happened or if your still alive. What do you do?? What would you do if your time was running out, you know the date and there is nothing you can do to stop it? What would you do?

As I read Stacy's blog this evening these things stuck out in my head......

"When I went to bed on Tuesday night, I realized it was my last Tuesday with Isaac in my tummy... maybe my last Tuesday with him at all. And again, I just cried (and cried... and cried). I started to pray and I the only words I found that would come out (not audibly, but in my head) were, Lord I need you. Please protect us. I just didn't know what else to say. And so I said that over and over."

"Yesterday I was asked what I am looking forward to about Tuesday. At first it seemed like an odd question because there is so much anticipation of sadness surrounding that day. But in reality, there are some things I am looking forward to."

".......And I am looking forward to to just kissing his little face over and over again... enough to last a lifetime."

And I cried, because I remember the pain of knowing that any of the days that I had with Nadia could have been my last. Eventually my last day came and went, and I remember studying her little face enough so that I could sear it in to my mind so that I would never forget what she looked like. Observing ever detail so I would be able to see her when I closed my eyes from here until eternity, every crinkle and crease, the shape of her lips and her tiny fingers and toes are forever stamped into my mind so that when everyone else forgets.... I WONT! To stare at your child and kiss your child enough in just a few moments, to last a lifetime! How does one do that?? How does a mother kiss and just look at her baby enough in one moment to satisfy the craving for an entire lifetime? Better yet, how does a mother condense all the love she has to give over an entire lifetime in one moment?? What would you do if you knew that in one moment you had to kiss your little one enough to last your lifetime, and you get no second chances? How much is enough?

I tell you when I am old and Jayden and Averiana are grown I will still remember ever crinkle and crease in Nadia's face, I will still remember the shape of her lips, I will still remember her tiny fingers and toes, and most of all I will still remember the day that my time ran out! The day that my Angel was no longer safe inside of me, the day that I could no longer protect her from her God given destiny. And I will still feel the love that I have carried for her in my soul for a lifetime. I will remember then just as I do now!

An Angel Never Dies.
Don’t let them say I wasn’t born, That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave, I’ve loved you from the start.

Although my body you can’t hold, It doesn’t mean I’m gone
This world was worthy, not of me, God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul, What you are forced to face
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms, Someday we will embrace.

You’ll hear that it was meant to be, God doesn’t make mistakes
But that wont soften your worst blow, Or make your heart not ache.

I’m watching over all you do, Another child you’ll bear
Believe me when I say to you, That I am always there.

There will come a time, I promise you, When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips And then you’ll understand.

Although I’ve never breathed your air, Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn’t mean I never was, An Angel never dies.

Please I ask all of you to pray for Isaac! Pray that Stacy doesn't have to kiss him only for those moments that should last her lifetime. Please pray that Isaac lives!

Gas Prices Drive my Wallet

Ok so has anyone frequented gasbuddy.com?? Are you freaking kidding me? Gas prices here in Charleston are $3.89 a gallon, now I looked and like 3 hours away from me it's $3.49 a gallon. Its freaking ridiculous! I get 28 miles per gallon in my car, but I swear to you as the prices of gas go up, so does the actual amount of water that is in gas. I don't think I have seen 28 miles per gallon since I bought my car last year and gas was like $2.70 a gallon. Our government and oil companies are completely ripping off the American people and it pisses me off! Honestly who keeps this country a float?? Is it those high paid oil tycoons? Or washington?? Ok so maybe the oil tycoons make the most $$$ and washington takes care of our forgien affairs, but it is our hard working middle class that makes this country what it is!! Our should I say what it used to be! Now that we have these pig headed idiots running our country, no I am not just talking about George Bush because if you think about it his dumbass can't run our country anywhere but in the ground, the actual people that "run" our country are the owners of companies such as Exxon! And they are making millions off of us while the US can barely afford to keep the refridgerators stocked with groceries let alone fill their cars up with gas in the same paycheck! So thanks a lot!! Screw you all!! I guess when it becomes to high for the Real American people to afford it and everyone has to walk maybe it will click in their greedy brains..."Hey maybe we should cut our consumers some slack and lower the FUCKING PRICES" Duh you fucking boneheads!! I say screw them all!!

So how much are gas prices in your area?????

October 1st

So I would have to say that October is probably one of my favorite months ever. I think it has to do with the fact that it is Fall! I love fall, when the leaves change, and its a little rainy outside and just chilly enough to cook Chili or some other sort of soup and just relax in the house! I love it and just talking about it make me feel snuggly inside! Today here in Charleston it has rained all day but it has been one of those lovely rainy days, where it was just fine to wear a light jacket and not so cold that you could see your breath! Well I would love to have soup this evening! Maybe a wonderful Cheesey Potato Soup, from recipezaar.com. But instead I'm having tacos and burritos since that is one of the only things that I can get my children to eat and actually get full! So I guess it will be fine!!





So on to more October news, Averiana Jade is set to arrive via c-section on October 13th, unless she somehow comes early! I can't wait to meet my little Princess!! YAY!! I am sooo excited!! And I guess the best part is, is that I know when her birthday will be!! Like I said unless she comes earlier on her own!





Just reminding everyone who doesn't know. The month of October is National Breast Cancer Awareness Month.

You may not think there is anything you can do, but I am sure that by visiting their website or even finding some of your local organizations, you can find out how to get involved. The National Breast Cancer Awareness Month website is http://www.nbcam.org So check out their site to better educate yourself and learn of different ways that you yourself can get involved!!

Well thats about it for me! For right now anyways lol!