One Year Ago

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGEL

Today is my sweet Angel's birthday.
Her name is Nadia Monee' Ellis!
And my sweet little Princess grew her wings today, one year ago!
She went to live with Jesus and help watch over Mommy and her big sister Jayden.

My little Angel Happy Birthday to You!
I miss you more than LIFE!
I wish you were here with me so I could hold you one more time!
I love you with all of my heart and all of my soul.
My littlest Angel I miss you!
My littlest Angel Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday Nadia!
Happy Birthday to you!

My sweet Princess

It has been a Year since Ive held you in my arms
A Year since I have seen your face
One year since I have touched you

My sweet Angel

It has been a year since I've kissed you
One year since you have grown wings
One year since you learned to fly

My littlest Angel

It has been one year since I left you
A year since God came and took you
It has been a year since your birth day
And only hours since I have cried

Sweet Baby

I haven't forgotten and I never will
Jayden asks about you everyday
I miss you my Angel
I cry at night when I think of you
I have to be strong for Jayden and Averiana

My Sweet Angel

It is your birthday and I can't hold you when I say I love you
I can't kiss you Happy Birthday
I can't wake you up or see your smile

Little Baby Girl

You have no idea how much I wish I only had just one more day
One more day to see you
One more day to hold you
One more day to kiss you

Nadia Monee'

I know that you are in Heaven
I know you see Me and Jayden
I know that you know we miss you

Little Nadia

I am sorry!
I am sorry that I can't hold you
I am sorry that I can't wrap you in my arms
I am sorry that I can't kiss you

Mommy's Baby

Your are my littlest Angel
I wish you were here!
I wish I could come and get you and wake you up
I wish we could sing Happy Birthday and see your sweet smile
I wish you could eat birthday cake and blow out candles
I wish you could open presents

Nadia

I wish I could hear you laugh
I wish I could hold you when you cry
I wish I could kiss you good night
I wish I could tuck you in

Oh My sweet little Girl

I wish you were here with me and not in the sky
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday My baby
I love you so much

Happy Birthday Angel

So I guess my kisses and hugs
My "goodnights" and "i love you's"
My stories and tears
I have to send them to the sky so that you will get them

Nadia I love you and Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday!

Love
Mommy

Today has went Smooth????

So I guess the girls knew that I was mad about them breaking the rules this morning, so what happened?? The rest of our day has went rather smoothly. They actually cleaned their room in a timely fashion and I mean like closets beds and everything. Wow! I thought I was going to have a heart attack! Plus they cleaned it up and I only had to ask them once and there was no whining or eye rolling! I thought I had been transported to a different house! I mean really that never ever ever happens. LOL!! Maybe I need to show my disappointment more often lol!!

Ok Ok so besides that these little girls today must be trying to earn some kind of brownie points for somewhere that they want to go or do because they helped me in the rest of the house too!! I know heart attack!

Jaylain helped:
Folded all the blankets that the girls play with
Swept the kitchen floor
Vaccumed half of the living room

Jayden helped:
Pick up all the dirty clothes
Pick up any trash that could be thrown away
Vaccumed the other half of the living room and the hall

Yea I know! What happened? Did some sort of alien come in from outerspace and trade in my kids! LOL or as Courtney and I say.... Maybe I got my real kids back you know the ones that listen and help out! And the kids I have been living with went back to their real families lol!!

So the girls had been soo sweet! I love it! They haven't fought, they have hugged each other, practiced the cheerleading cheers, and just been super nice and helpful!

Well they asked if we could order pizza tonight and since they have been so wonderful I felt I was obligated lol! Plus after all this nice ness and cleaning I really don't feel like cooking!! So anyways we ordered pizza just a bit ago and it should be here about 8! So tonight we are going to each pizza and maybe some popcorn and watch the premiere of the new Cheetah Girls movie that comes on Disney at 8! And since they have been so good I told them we could skip our 9 o'clock bedtime tonight and stay up until the Cheetah Girls goes off! Which I don't think either one of them will make it through! But hey they have suprised me enough today they might just do it again lol!!

I tell you if everyday was like today I would never be in a bad mood! LOL!! Please oh please let tomorrow go smooth too! One more time... Please oh please let tomorrow go smooth too!!

Well anyways let me wait on my pizza and count down until Cheetah girls comes on and my little ones eyes close lol!! Because when that happens I get to soak my pregnant bones in the bath tub!! YAY!!

Yet another Rule Breaker

Ok Ok so my girls have specific rules in this house, and they are not difficult I might add. A few simple rules.

1. No running though the house.
-I make this rule because first of all they can hurt themselves, because both are very clumsey. And second of all because all of my furniture is glass and I don't want any of my shit broken. Not a hard rule!!

2. No hitting and fighting.
-This one was made for obvious reasons.

3. They are not allowed to play in the bathroom, kitchen or my bedroom.
-Bathroom and Kitchens are not a place to play period, knives are in the kitchen and in the bathroom there are too many hair products that make very large and sticky messes. My room well because it is my space and nothing in there belongs to them.

4. They must be responsible for their things.
-Thats not hard, if it is theirs they need to pick it up, they need to keep their things tidy and in order.

Ok ok so there are the rules. They are not difficult considering that my girls are 3 and 7. But once again the rules were broken today.

First of all they were both playing in the bathroom this morning and what were they playing with??? Dun Dun Dun, yes they were playing with the hand soap, it was everywhere. Why is it neccessary for two children that are old enough to comprehend not to do this, and still do??? Why, you got me?? I have no clue. Also in the bathroom I also found Gatorade spilt and crackers all in the floor! They are not allowed to eat and drink out of the kitchen. That is not a rule, that is a given! They have never been allowed and it will not start! All meals and drinks are served in the kitchen at the table. Ok ok on to the next thing that upset me that they did this morning. Their granddad bought them an M&M dispenser each, which I myself was totally against because sugar just hypes them up, well anyways so I took the dispensers and put them on top of the entertainment center, well they had evidently secretly sneeked them into their room without my noticing becuase the little one walks in with about 20 M&M's in her mouth! Before breakfast, I wanted to scream!! AHHHH! I was just PISSED!!! Well Jaylain (7) had to of gotten them down because she is the taller one and the only child here that could have possible reached them, No I am not putting the blame entirely on her because I have no idea who's idea it was to begin with!

So anyways, I was upset, I can't watch them every second of the day, I only have 2 eyes!! They have obviously figured out that I only have two and they both have taken advantage of my handicapp lol! I guess if I had more eyes and more hands I would be better equipped to handle my two kids! So until I grow those extra body parts I guess they will still break rules!! WHY??? Hell I guess I will never gain control!! AHHHH!

Anyways there was my Morning! Yet another rule broken!!

All about Mine

Hi all

Welcoming to my vent spot lol.

My name is Chelsie and I am 22 years old. I am a mother to a beautiful little princess named Jayden Maree' who is 3 years old. She came into my life on December 9th 2004, and was just perfect. I am also an Angel's mother, to a beautiful Angel named Nadia Monee', who entered my life and heaven on August 31st 2007. She was my littlest wonder and I miss her everyday. I am also a soon to be mommy to little Miss Averiana Jade who is due for her formal introduction on October 20th 2008. I love all three of my little girlies and wouldn't change any of them for the world. They are the rocks that keep me grounded, my life without them would not exsist.

I am currently in a long term relationship with a wonderful man named Leonard or L as we call him. We have been together for about 2 and 1/2 years. He is absolutely the love of my life, but at times lol I can't stand his ass! He has a sweet little princess himself, from a previous relationship, her name is Jaylain and she is 7 years old. So I guess at the same time that I am a mother to my own girls I am a stepmother to little miss Jaylain. Averiana will become our second child together and we are both overly excited. Also even though Leonard is not named on Jayden's birth certificate, he still is Daddy to her. The only daddy that she has ever known. L stepped up to the plate and took on that role in her life and for that itself I will always love and commend him for, because her own sperm donor didn't have the balls to do it, but L did! Thank you honey!

I am also a student, studying Biology with the hopes of oneday becoming a Medical Examiner, something I have wanted to do my whole life. At this point I have about 2 semesters left before I graduate with my BS. I can't wait to have a real JOB!! YAY!!

Ok OK so lets see.....
I am a mother!
I am a student!
I work fulltime! (on maternity leave now)
I take care of my household!
I am in love!
I am a smart ass lol!
I can be a complete bitch!
I am special!
I am a Woman!
I am a good woman with my head on my shoulders, strong and independent!

Although its seems wonderful I must forewarn all, my life is mostly My Own Personal Day Time Soap!!! Just without the Emmy's lol!

So anyways that's me!!